So I’ve been a little MIA from the interwebs lately. And so many of you have been so sweet to message me and check to make sure I’m ok. I’m so thankful for all of you!
No, I did not have a relapse with Rhabdo (thank goodness!) If you missed my experience with that condition or are wondering what the heck it even is you can read my post about it HERE.
The reason I have been MIA is because I have not been feeling great, but it’s for the most wonderful reason of all… we are expecting our first baby!!! 🙂
Y’all I can’t even describe to you what a miracle this is, but I want to try! I apologize in advance because this is a really long post. But I tried to only include the parts that seemed like milestones in our journey.
If you follow me for my painted furniture creations, I would love for you to keep reading even though this is largely unrelated to that topic. My little painting business has given me an outlet to be creative and something to throw my energy and resources into while we walked this difficult path and I’m so grateful for it.
For the past five years my husband and I have been on the unfortunate journey of infertility. It has been by far the most difficult five years of my life. I know so many women have to walk this path and unless you have been there it’s difficult to truly understand the emotional roller coaster that it is – to have such a strong desire for something that is 100% out of your control. (I learned so much over these last five years about the statistics and probabilities for even a healthy normal couple to conceive and it truly is a MIRACLE for ANY baby to be conceived and born!)
“If I could give any advice from what I have learned on my journey to someone who is going through this most difficult season, it would be to try not to compare your story to someone else’s.”
I have wanted to share our story with you even before we found out we were pregnant. Even though it’s a very vulnerable thing to share, I feel it’s important to talk about because it can be such a lonely place to walk. And it helps to hear from others that they have experienced the same things you have and that you’re NOT alone in your situation.
I will say, however, that everyone’s story is unique and different. If I could give any advice from what I have learned on my journey to someone who is going through this most difficult season, it would be to try not to compare your story to someone else’s. There have been many friends and acquaintances who have become closer friends through the sharing of unexpected similar experiences. And in a way it is very encouraging. But the temptation is real to begin projecting their story onto yours. You can start thinking and hoping so strongly that “oh, maybe WE can do that and it will work for US too!” Time and time again the things that worked for those other people failed for us and it was crushing.
Know that God has a plan for you and your family and try to trust in that. He is good. And He knows what is best for your family, even though the waiting is excruciatingly painful and frustrating.
My faith in Him and His plan for us was the ONLY thing that kept me sane and functioning during these last five years. It was a bittersweet season of growing in my faith and developing a more intimate, personal relationship with God. Because I knew that only HE could create the baby I so desired to add to our family. No matter what treatments or procedures we might try. If it was not in His plan and His timing, no treatment or procedure would be successful.
“I kept wrestling throughout this entire journey with the knowledge that if God intended for us to have a child, He could make it happen regardless of whether we did any fertility treatments.”
We were ultimately diagnosed with unexplained infertility. It’s the most frustrating diagnosis you can receive because you don’t know what to treat or where to start to try and fix it. Fix what?? Every test we had done came back normal. Normal. Normal. Normal. I got to a point where I WISHED for some test to show SOMETHING that was wrong so we could go “oh, yes, ok here’s the treatment to address THAT.” But there was nothing.
And so our doctor referred us to a fertility clinic. It was such a surreal feeling to hear the words “I’ve done all I can do, I’m sending you to a fertility clinic.” I thought this can’t be happening. A fertility clinic? Surely we don’t need to go down that road. Maybe we just need a little more time. (It had been six months, which at my age is when they suggest you see a doctor if you’ve not had success.) So… we waited. We put off going to the clinic.
I kept wrestling throughout this entire journey with the knowledge that if God intended for us to have a child, He could make it happen regardless of whether we did any fertility treatments. When the time was right it would just happen. And at the same time I also believe He created smart people who were able to develop scientific treatments to sometimes make what seems to be impossible possible. It was a constant mind battle for me between the two and trying to figure out what was right for us.
I think another six months went by and we finally decided to just go to the clinic and see what they had to say.
Having only been to this fertility clinic, I can’t say that this is how ALL fertility clinics operate, but their goal is to simply get you pregnant. They have basically two types of treatments they can offer in order to make this happen as quickly as possible – IUI (artificial insemination) and IVF (in vitro fertilization). We thought since we had an unexplained diagnosis, and we had already had so many tests done to try and figure out the issue, what else was left to try? So we decided to give IUI a shot.
This is the less invasive/intense procedure of the two. Though it still involves taking hormones and giving yourself shots. It’s a very stressful, carefully timed process. But we managed to make it through the first procedure. No luck.
We tried a second time… still no luck. And a third. The doctor had recommended three rounds and then she highly suggested (because of my age) that we move on to IVF. Round three failed and I just wasn’t ready to take that next step. She could sense my hesitation and thankfully allowed us to try another three rounds of IUI.
When rounds four and five failed, I couldn’t take any more. I needed a break. We never even went back to do the sixth round.
“It’s not a moment I’m proud of. But it was how I felt in that moment.”
I became very bitter and angry towards God. So many women around me were making pregnancy announcements. Some that were VERY hard to swallow – in situations that I felt were much less “prepared” than we were. That’s not a reflection on them, but rather a reflection on where my heart was at the time. I couldn’t understand why God wouldn’t allow that to happen for US too.
I remember one occasion specifically when I was working on a piece of furniture. It had to be primed which meant I needed to spray it. That day was the only day I could do it because the forecast showed rain for the next several days. And I had a deadline to meet. But the wind was blowing like CRAZY and the spray tent I use could not be contained even with the various weights I was using to hold it down. It literally went tumbling across the back yard at one point like it was a giant tumbleweed and I kind of lost it with God.
Actually, not kind of… I was yelling at Him out loud. Saying things like “Seriously?! I HAVE to get this piece sprayed TODAY! Can You not hold off the wind just long enough for me to get this done?? Is infertility not suffering enough?? Do I have to also struggle with this business??”
It is not a moment I’m proud of. But it was how I felt in that moment. And I believe that God already knows how we’re feeling anyway. So it’s not wrong to express it to Him. Although, later I felt really sorry for the way I had acted. Thankfully He is a forgiving God and I believe He forgave me for that little tantrum. 🙂
I had tried all sorts of things along with the IUI cycles to help them be successful…acupuncture, herbs, you name it, I tried it. Then I was told about a doctor who uses something called NaPro Technology. This is basically a more natural process to help couples conceive. It’s a long process, not a quick fix like the fertility clinic procedures. But in a nutshell the process attempts to identify a problem to address as opposed to virtually throwing darts to see if they will stick. You can imagine the hope I felt having been told our situation was “unexplained.”
The process works to check for hormone imbalances and to make your body do the work it was made to do as opposed to doing the work for it. We went down this road and began treating a slight hormone imbalance that was found. For almost two years we gave this process the opportunity to work. (Again we requested a longer period than is recommended with the first treatment that was offered. We did the treatment for a whole year as opposed to six months. Add to that about four months of learning how to chart our cycles and a few months of mental breaks and we were almost two years into it.)
With every treatment we really tried to squeeze the life out of the possibilities so we could say we tried everything. And all the while IVF was still on the table in the back of our minds as the absolute last resort. (We would have to go back to the fertility clinic for that, Napro Technology does not include things like IUI and IVF.)
“…I had begun to have a peace about whatever God had planned for our family.”
In January 2018, we decided to take a break after almost two years with that doctor because I just needed an emotional and mental break from the fertility calendar and charting that was involved. You’re marking something on every single day of the calendar, paying attention to your body’s symptoms and counting the days of your cycle. After a solid two years we were just done.
During this time I had begun to have a peace about whatever God had planned for our family. Even if it meant we would not have children of our own. He had blessed us with so many opportunities to pour ourselves into the lives of children around us and that was, and is not taken for granted.
In NaPro Technology, the final option on the road of treatment was an exploratory surgery for endometriosis. Endometriosis is a condition where the lining of your uterus grows outside the uterus on other organs in your body, usually in your lower abdomen. The doctor explained to us that sometimes the only way to find endometriosis is through surgery.
Sometimes women don’t experience the severe symptoms of the disease such as intense pain – I did not. Not consistently anyway. However, infertility is also a symptom of endometriosis and I definitely had that. But still, I had never had surgery before and so I kept putting it off.
I had bought a necklace that quotes Elizabeth to Mary in scripture when Mary was pregnant with Jesus. It says “blessed is she who believed He would fulfill His promise to her.” When I bought it, it was meant to be encouraging to me. But the more I thought about it, I thought “the promise of a child was not made to me the way it was made to Mary. I don’t feel that God has promised me children.”
But I know that God DOES have promises for us in His word. So I began to try to think of what promise in His word I could cling to that IS for ME.
And I landed on the promise of eternal life. John 3:16 says “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”
I believe with my whole heart this is true, and have since I was young. But now it took on a new meaning for me.
He sent His only Son to die on the cross for MY sins. So that I could live for eternity with Him instead of eventually suffering the spiritual death I deserve. And it’s a free gift offered to anyone who simply believes in Him for it. He did that for me and He promises eternal life when I could NEVER deserve or earn that gift.
And so any time my thoughts started to go down the path of throwing myself a pity party or feeling like I DESERVED the chance to be a parent because of everything I felt I had done to be prepared for the opportunity – I would remind myself that God has already made the ultimate sacrifice to give me the ultimate gift and promise of eternal life through believing in His Son Jesus. And I DID NOT and COULD NEVER deserve that. And if I never receive another thing on this earth that I feel so strongly that I want, THAT gift and sacrifice and promise is ENOUGH.
“…I have no doubt that God put that peace in my heart to sustain me through this season.”
And so I found peace. I even had begun to daydream about what early retirement might look like for us without kids. And it wasn’t a half bad thing to dream about. Would I always feel like I had missed out on something great? Probably. But I was totally at peace with it. And I have no doubt that God put that peace in my heart to sustain me through this season.
Then the desire for a child returned.
I had a dream in July 2017 that we had a baby girl. It was the most real dream. And though I don’t remember details about what she looked like, I remember how I felt. How much I LOVED that baby girl. How I was surprised that I didn’t mind losing sleep at night and getting up to feed her. How my mom was here to help and how I went through the process of getting baby’s things together to prepare to be gone for an hour or so for errands while mom stayed with the baby. So real.
I didn’t want to forget that dream so as soon as I woke up I went to my favorite reading spot to write it down in a journal. I sobbed as I wrote because it was just so beautiful. I prayed to God and thanked Him for that beautiful dream and told Him that I desperately hoped that I would get to meet that baby girl in real life some day. In His time.
Fast forward to April 2018, I got rhabdomyolysis from a workout and had to be hospitalized for IV fluids for three days. We met our insurance deductible with that hospital stay. What does any financially-minded person do when they’ve met their insurance deductible well before the end of the year? Of course you think about how you can use that to your advantage and what other medical needs you might be able to take care of while it’s paid for! And so, I began to think…and the thing I still really didn’t WANT to do came to mind. The exploratory surgery.
The same hesitancies were still there. Surgery is a huge deal. I don’t want to have surgery. I don’t have consistent pain so I’m not certain the surgery would even be worth it. I don’t want to do this major thing for no reason or no results. We had talked with our doctor multiple times about the possible benefits of having this surgery. Key word being POSSIBLE. He explained very bluntly that they (doctors) don’t know all the reasons that this surgery helps some women and not others. Sometimes they find nothing. Sometimes they find severe endometriosis and clean it out and it still doesn’t help a couple to conceive. Basically there were still a lot of unknowns and no guarantees.
But we began to consider it again and to pray about whether this was the next step we should take. I still wrestled with the idea that none of this was necessary. And if God truly intended for us to have a family He could just make it happen regardless of any treatment.
“… I felt convicted… God has put this opportunity in front of me to try and be healed and I was insisting that He do it another way, with NO treatment.”
I was doing a devotional at the time and one day the scripture reference was from 2 Kings chapter 5. This tells the story of the Syrian army commander named Naaman who was suffering from leprosy. He traveled to see the prophet Elisha because he had heard that he served a God who could perform miraculous healings. In hopes of Elisha calling on his God to heal Naaman from his leprosy, Naaman and his servants traveled to find him. When they arrived Elisha didn’t even come out to meet Naaman in person. Instead he sent a messenger to meet him with the message that he should wash himself in the Jordan River seven times and he would be healed. Naaman was angry and refused to do it saying he expected Elisha himself to call on his God and miraculously heal his disease. After all weren’t the rivers where he traveled from just as good or better than the Jordan? Couldn’t he have just washed in those rivers and been healed? Naaman’s servants convinced Naaman to do the thing Elisha’s messenger had commanded him. So Naaman washed in the Jordan River and was healed of his leprosy.
I don’t believe in coincidences. And I believe that God most certainly can speak to us in our circumstances through reading His word. So I felt convicted that I was just like Naaman. God has put this opportunity in front of me to try and be healed and I was insisting that He do it another way, with NO treatment.
So we decided to move forward with the surgery. Even with the surgery scheduled, one day in my shop while I was painting I found myself daydreaming about early retirement with no kids. Still feeling peaceful and even maybe a little bit excited about that possibility. The radio was on in the background tuned to KLOVE, which I listen to often while I work. I wasn’t consciously listening because I was lost in my thoughts of early retirement life.
Let me preface this next part by saying that even though I am a woman of faith, I am one of those people who is skeptical when someone says that they audibly heard God speak to them. Simply because it has never happened to me and I just don’t understand how that would be possible. But let me tell you that on this day, God very CLEARLY spoke to me and there was NO DOUBT the message was from Him.
In the song that was playing (that I was not really listening to), suddenly I heard clear as a bell in the midst of my daydreaming “DON’T YOU GIVE UP ON THE MIRACLE.” It was so clear and so out of the blue and pulled me out of my own head in such a way that I just began sobbing. Because I heard God saying, “do not give up hope yet.” It was a command. And it pierced my heart so that all I could do was sob and answer “ok, I won’t.”
In July, my mom was there with me for the surgery and I remember being back in my room and waking up from the anesthesia. She was telling me that the doctor said they did find endometriosis and were able to clean it out. I just sobbed. She asked why I was crying. It was because FINALLY there was SOMETHING to point to. The surgery had not been for nothing. Even if it did not end up resulting in pregnancy for us, I was so thankful that at least we didn’t have yet ANOTHER test/procedure that told us we were “normal.”
“…I just got down on my knees with my snotty nose and wet face and eyes, in the same place where I had many times knelt in tears begging God for a child, and could not even find the words to show my gratitude to God for this precious gift.”
The very next month when my cycle went longer than normal I was a total basket case. I had been down the road of dashed hopes for almost every single month for the past five years. I wanted to hope the reason for the lengthened cycle was because we were pregnant, but at the same time I didn’t want to go through the heartache of that disappointment again if we weren’t.
I cannot explain to you the sheer joy and excitement and happy tears that flowed out of my heart when I saw that positive pregnancy test! At first it was so hard to believe. And then I just got down on my knees with my snotty nose and wet face and eyes, in the same place where I had many times knelt in tears begging God for a child or for Him to take away my desire, and could not even find the words to show my gratitude to God for this precious gift. I literally just knelt there and sobbed unrecognizable words to the human ear (you know like when you’re ugly crying and no one can understand what you’re saying. lol.) But He knew.
Psalm 127:3 “Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from Him.”
So what does this means for my painting business? It is on pause for now. Just pause. Not ending. The paint products I use are pretty safe, but I want to be super cautious about what I am breathing and absorbing through my skin while baby is growing and developing.
I feel certain I will be creating again hopefully soon after baby comes. I already have the itch now that I don’t feel like I’m going to be nauseous at the drop of a hat!
I do want to keep up my blog now that I’m feeling better if possible. But since I’m not painting right now I’m not sure how much painting content I would have for you.
I know most of you don’t follow me for baby and pregnancy related things, but tell me if you would be interested in those sorts of updates from time to time. Because I obviously am in the process of getting a nursery ready, trying to figure out what baby products we need, etc. I would love your tips too if you’ve had a baby recently or know someone who has! First timers here and we are taking in all the info that is out there!
If you made it this far and are still reading you seriously deserve a huge pat on the back! Thank you for taking the time to read our story. It really means a lot.
And I hope that if you are someone in the midst of an infertility journey it helps you not feel alone in some small way. I see you. And I have been there. And I’m praying for God to continue writing your story from His book and to give you peace in the midst of the waiting.
April, this is such wonderful news!!! Congratulations! Thank you for sharing your story. I’ll be praying for you and your sweet family!
Thank you so much Mika!
Wow, what a journey you have been on!! God is so faithful! I can’t wait to follow along and see your precious baby! Congratulations!
Thank you Janice!
So happy for you and Jeff. I cried reading your story. Yes …we definitely want updates on Baby Hyde. Congratulations and prayers for you ,Jeff and baby.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of faith, heartbreak and joy! I’m so happy for you and Jeff. It’s so important for women to share their story if they feel they can because there is always someone out there who feels alone in their story. We had a few miscarriages along the way and once I could talk about it without crying, I was simply amazed by the support of other women who had similar faith-testing stories. So thank you for being brave and sharing something so personal!
Thank you Becky! It is a scary thing to put all these personal struggles out there in the world. And I can totally relate to the not being able to talk about it without crying! That was me for the majority of this journey. But I know that God was asking me to share what He did in the midst of our pain and frustration. I hope it blesses someone. And I’m so sorry for your sweet babies you lost.
April, I’m SO happy for you and your husband…your life will NEVER be the same (in a good way) and you will love your “new” life! Believe it or not, I understand completely how you feel. We had been married for nine years before I had surgeries (two) for endometriosis, which I had very bad and it was extremely painful. Thank the good Lord, several months after my second surgery, I got pregnant!
Congratulations and soak up every minute of this most wonderful journey!
Thank you so much Betty! One thing I know for sure is that we never know who we come into contact with who may have walked the same road. So glad your story had a happy ending too! I can’t wait to meet this baby! 🙂
Absolutely beautiful, April! I’m so very happy for you both.
Thank you Gwen! Love y’all!
I am overjoyed for this wonderful news! Can’t wait to see baby bump pictures. Love you friend!
Thank you friend! Love you too!
I would love to follow your journey with you! Thank you for sharing your heart & God’s answer to your prayers!
Hugs,
Nancy
Thanks for reading Nancy!
Nothing like crying at work on a Thursday! I’m so so happy for you all and can’t wait to follow your journey forward. The heartache will be totally worth it, as it likely already is ❤️
Totally worth it! Sorry for the tears at work! lol
Wow April! God is so good! I’m so happy for you and your husband. What an exciting time!
Congratulations
Thank you Susan!
Beautiful sweet patient and kind April. I am rejoicing for you through tears today. I can feel your jubilance all the way to West Texas!!! PLEASE KEEP WRITING ABOUT YOUR JOURNEY. I read every word about the horrible exercise condition and the wonderful baby. From an English Instructor’s experience, let me say you are a talented writer!! Much love to you both!!! So happy to hear your news.
Well thank you very much! 🙂 We are excited!
Congratulations April! I’m so happy for you and will definitely be following you. I miss you! ❤️
Thank you Donna! Miss you guys too!
Well, this certainly made my day. I’m so excited for you and Jeff. You two will be spectacular parents.
Aww thank you Rusty!
I am ugly crying!!! Wow, what a story! Honey , we are so happy for you both! CONGRATULATIONS! We love you both and are so excited for you guys!
Congratulations 🎊 and what an amazing testimony! Blessings to you and this amazing journey!
Congratulations April!!! I’m just bawling happy happy happy tear!!!
I love you sweet friend! Praying for your journey and SO amazed at your strength, faith and poise in your, already, long journey! God is SO SO amazing!
Thank you Jamie! 🙂
What a beautiful honest writing of your faith and trust in The Lord. Of course I was in tears. Thank you for your braveness in sharing. It creates in me a new awareness of the agony of infertility. I will be praying for a safe complete delivery of a fearfully and wonderfully made child!!! I love you both!!
Laura
Thank you Laura!
Ahh, sweet cousin, such sweet, sweet things to happen to one of my favorite cousins!! I am so excited to watch this growing promise:)!! I pray to get to see her once she arrives. Just can’t even tell you how glad I am that you were able to express this long & arduous journey & how beautiful it is to know Christ in this way. Even though we really don’t want the suffering, it is almost always IN the suffering that He truly reveals parts of His character that we might never learn otherwise. SO glad the He is patient with us & loves us so deeply as to carry us in the darkest of times & with tenderness, set us down in the beautiful fields of His grace to run in the peace & blessings He is about to pour down like rain! What a Savior! I was so excited about this news I had to run tell my girls, even though they don’t really get to know you…. All praising God with you! Prayers are with you both as you prepare for the most miraculous piece of living:) My advice (which I realize not everyone may necessarily agree with) Baby Wise books! They are really a God-send & I pray you can find them & utilize them. Sorry this is so long:(!
Thank you so much! I have heard of those books and definitely want to check them out! Thank you for the suggestion. Love you!
April,
So beautifully written – thank you for sharing. It gave me goosebumps – and it reminded me of something that became very apparent to me years ago, but I easily forget – that something GOOD does out of our troubles. Thank you for reminding me.
There is a reason for everything – even though sometimes nobody can imagine that there would be ANY good that could from the troubles in our lives. Your rhabdomyolysis (which must have been very frightening and horrible) was The Thing that lead you to going ahead and having the surgery – it lead to your miracle. If that hadn’t happened, you would not have gone ahead with the surgery.
You are going to be One Heck of a Mom!!! So excited for you!
All so true! Thank you so much!
I am beyond excited for you and Jeff. Your story has me in tears, but they are happy ones. Sharing this will impact so many women in this struggle. Your faith has gained strength and your testimony is powerful. What a journey you have taken, what an adventure you are embarking on! Praise God, He is good! You know I want to follow this.
Thank you Fay!
That was a precious story that you wrote. So very glad for y’all. God is so good. Would like to keep up with how things are going. Love y’all
Congratulations April, I am very happy for you. You will be a wonderful Mom. I would love to follow you on this beautiful journey.
April, first let me say congratulations. God is so good. Now, about a week ago I thought “Wait! I haven’t heard anything from April at RawHyde Furnishings.” I’m not on social media as much these days so I figured that was why. I then went to your page and was very puzzled by your absence. So I prayed for you. I knew God knew and that He had you. I think your are just precious and I wish you a wonderful pregnancy. I would love to know how you are doing, how you decide to decorate the nursery and of course see all the pics you care to share once your bundle of joy and love arrives. Thank you for sharing your story. Remember, God gives the hardest battles to the strongest of us. You have handled your journey with grace…yes I did read about the tantrum, but it’s ok…give yourself a little grace as well. God Bless you and your sweet family. Much love!
~ Kim
Thank you Kim for your prayers! So sweet of you to do that when you saw I was “missing.” 🙂
So first of all congratulations to both of you!! Second. Thank you for making me cry the greatest tears of joy ever! I am so happy for you and Jeff! You’re gonna be the BEST mom!! And your faith has inspired me. We need a celebration lunch or breakfast. Can’t wait to see you!!
Congratulations! Such a hard and yet beautiful story.
I had 2 babies after a diagnosis of endo. I’m so thankful you were in tune to listen and follow. Blessings on you and your precious family and the wonderful days ahead.
Oh, April! I am thrilled for you and Jeff. What wonderful news this is!!! Praise God for His goodness!!! Dale, Ben, David and I are rejoicing with you!!!
I have prayed for you as I was in a small group with your sister. This is such wonderful miraculous news. Praying a great pregnancy and delivery of your miracle! 🙌🏼
Thank you so much! We so appreciate all of the people who have prayed for us!
April, you and I went to school together, but I am few years older than you. Your sister shared this on her Facebook and I couldn’t stop reading! The Hubs and I had many years of infertility. I spent many times, on the floor, ugly crying and asking “why” to my God…knowing He cared about me, but not understanding the purpose of the awful journey. I believe He takes us through these times for several reasons, and one of those is so we are able to help carry the burden of others and encourage them when they are going through something similar. I am thrilled beyond words about your baby! Blessings on your pregnancy and I look forward to seeing more from you! Cherish the Journey, no matter where He takes you! Much love, Amy
Thank you so much Amy! Yes, I definitely believe there is always a purpose in our suffering, whether we can see it at the time or not!
Omgosh!!! April im so excited for You. I went through an emotional few years before becoming AND keeping a pregnancy. Gage is now 14. Lol. Its worth it. You 2 will be amazing parents!
Congratulations!! What a powerful testimony of the power of our God!! I have walked the journey of infertility and it is not for the faint of heart!! I for one admire you for being so open and raw in your journey!! I have a 7 year old daughter and 4 year old triplets and what a blessing they are!! Enjoy every moment with your precious bundle of joy!!
Ok I’m crying and snotty nose. But tears of joy. Your blog touched my heart. God is pleased April and Blessing abound for you and Jeff. I love you both so much.
April,
Thank you for sharing your heart and being so transparent. You have been on a journey and sought the Lord. He is giving you the desire of your heart. Barbara and I rejoice with you. This morning I was having breakfast at MacDonalds and reading my bible. A lady walk by and said what is the word of the Lord today. I look down at one of my favorite verses that was highlighted and read this promise:
Romans 15:13 I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in Him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit. NLT
May this promise bless you and Jeff as you trust in Him. Keeps us posted. He is the God of hope!
Congratulations on your happy news! Please continue your blog during this wonderful time in your life! We want to be with you every step of the way! Just wishing Aunt Audine and Uncle L.B. were here to welcome the new little one!
Thank you Tammy! And so do we, we miss them so much.
Oh April! I have missed you, wondered and prayed in your absence from social media. What a beautiful vulnerable honest God glorying post. I believe God is and will use your willingness to share in the lives of many. I cheered and wept while reading this. How good our God is to pursue, love and provide His best. I’m thankful He has blessed you with this beautiful gift. Congratulations to you both. Love to hear more of this journey as it unfolds.
Blessings
Thanks so much Beverly! 🙂
A messy, beautiful story. I’m so happy you persisted in the midst of disappointment and doubt. I know you will cherish the story of this journey and cling to it when you’re being tried again with a fussy baby or trantrum-ing toddler. 🙂 What a lucky little one to have parents who want and love him/her so desperately. Many blessings as your journey continues. xoxo
April, this was truly amazing! I have known Jeff’s family since I was a little kid and I am so happy for you both!!! I know Sandy is thrilled!
I’m so proud to be a great uncle again, but I want to tell you that when our youngest grandson came not 4 months ago, I was sitting in my chair admiring this precious boy that was also a miracle. And looking at him there were no words to describe the feeling I had holding a gift that was given to us, Jacey and Chano too, it was amazing as I looked at the little hands and feet, his mouth how it was shaped, his nose with 2 holes in it for him to smell, I could go on and on but you get the jest. I’m so very sure that my precious niece and nephew in law are going to be the most loving caring parents. I’m so happy for you both. Love you 3!!!
Thanks Uncle Mitchell! I can’t wait to meet this little one! Love you!
Thanks for sharing your heart and story! I am so happy for you!
April –
Oh my goodness – I am SO happy for you! My journey was not quite as long as yours, but your post hit so many of the same pains, frustration and sadness, I felt before finally becoming pregnant almost 4 years after we started trying. All in God’s time as they say, but it truly is hard to be patient. God has blessed you for your faithfulness. You will be a wonderful mom! Treasure the time of preparation, and sleep as much as you can now! 🙂 Congratulations to you both!
Thank you Crystal! 🙂
April,
What a beautiful story of God’s promises. Im so excited for you!
April,
What a remarkable story and testimony. I knew Jeff from church, then taught him in the fifth grade and in Sunday school the same year, and have loved him ever since.
I saw Sandy had posted this, and you story of faithfulness definitely touched my heart.
I rejoice with you “four” for it is evident God is in your family and your corner.
Congratulations,
Peggy Elliott
What a beautiful testimony.
I’m so happy for you guys !
Oh April! I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster as I’ve read your story, so I can only imagine your feelings over the past 5 years. Bless you both and a huge CONGRATULATIONS! I am so excited for you both!
April, you are going to be a wonderful mother.
How wonderful! You and Jeff will be such loving parents, I’m so happy for you both!
Oh my April! I love your story and yes your story of love and forgiveness! I am so happy for you and wish nothing but the best for you and your lil family! Congratulations! Yes, I want to follow you through this beautiful time in your life! ❤️ What a Blessing! 💖💙
Thank you Debbie! 🙂